Thursday 9th May, 2019. 12:12 PM
Its the 5th month in 2019. The past few years have been an up hill battle. Separation , lost, death, separation, lost, death, separation, lost...and death. But I am alive. The past years that I've been away from the blog, my least of difficulty was my illness. It was life. I am getting older...or am I old? Life is what we make it....chuckles...
I have always been different. Now being in my mid thirties , I realised that I did not make much positive headway in changing this side of me . I am still different, happily so though. It is because of my difference, I am able to attempt to live and cope. I cope very well. I don't appear to be sad and unhappy and frightened anymore... perhaps it's because I am not frightened and unhappy and sad anymore. I cope. After separation , lost, death, separation, lost, death, separation, lost...and death. I was able to find some happiness. Met someone . Who for the most part understands me. Who loves me. I am happy. I am also afraid of being happy. I am afraid it will disappear.....
On the health front. I was put on medication. I have been on it for the part one year and two months. After 6 months, I was undetectable. I feel great. Healthier. Healthier....happier.
Still alive...
