Im here again....

A few days ago i was ready to come to this blog and delete it all. I started to hate it. I felt i reached the bottom, that i had to come here and talk, to express myself. It felt horrible to know that there was no one around me, no one i could trust, to talk about this.

I stayed away from the blog for some time now. I deleted several of my older posts. This blog reminds me that I'm positive. That my life has limitations. That its dark and dirty. That I'm different.... and i am. That there is uncertainty. I stayed away from the blog, because i wanted to be normal again. I wanted to forget that i was positive.Maybe if i forget it, it disappears. I am weak. I shy away from the virus. I run and hide from it. ......

But then i came back for a visit to my blog and i noticed that i have 14 followers and not the 10 i left with. .... there are people out there that wanna hear my shit. ......that's encouraging. Glad to have you all here. reading my stuff. But be warned. One of the major characteristics of my Zodiac sign is that i need to get away ever so often. To be alone with me. To rejuvenate. to reassess.......